Fikiranku agak bercelaru these few days. Why? Firstly since si dia dah mula rasa tak secure denganku. I mean, it’s ok kalo kita rasa macam tak secure once awhile but kalo selalu sangat, aku semacam rimas. Yelah, aku pun bukannya ensem sangat pun sampaikan org bleh rasa camtu (motifff!!!) but my last ex pun camtu gak – si dia ni ada suruh aku fikirkan why orang rasa tak secure dengan aku, hmm! Entahlah, kadang2 aku rasa macam nak give up pun ada hidup camni. Aku semacam dah bosan sebenarnya sebab banyak sangat masalahnya. Aku lebih prefer relationship yang slow and steady, take step by step, and bukannya macam naik roket ke bulan.
One problem aku sedar dalam plu life ni, semua nak cepat. Nak commit cepat sangat. Bukan aku tak mahu tapi I just got out from a really painful relationship so rite now I’m being too careful in choosing the rite person for me. Sekarang aku dah dewasa and I have to start take charge of my life. Paling aku tak suka, kalo ada yang dah mula control hidup aku. Apapun, setiap manusia ada bermacam2 kerenah yang kadangkala kita sendiri tak terduga cuma cara kita menghadapinya berbeza mengikut perilaku masing2.
“All I want at the moment is peace in mind”. It’s important for me to find balance in the middle of mayhem. Semalam si dia dah kena lecture dengan aku. Semacam kesian pun ada plak dekat dia. Like I always said, “we need time to get to know each other first before kita commit anything”. I do appreciate apa yg dia dah buat utk aku and I do know you are waiting for the miracle to happen between us (mengikut kata dia…) but that miracle will not happen too soon since we’re both not ready to commit. Aku pun tak nak di tuduh cepat sangat got into a relationship so I’m taking everything slowly. Lagipun kalo cepat sangat meaning that aku just nk cover kesedihan aku jer so lebih baik jangan kan. Aku pesan gak kat dia yg aku tak suka short term, daripada short term baik berkawan jer – rasanya dia sentap kot…hehe.
Tak tahu kalo orang sanggup bersabar but skrg ni, my career and family comes first and aku nak lebihkan diri aku dulu before aku lebihkan org lain. Call me “selfish”, coz I don’t care. Dulu kalo lebihkan orang pun, last-last aku gak yg sakit + tensen. Dah single mingle ni, baik aku relaks dulu. Tak gitu?
One problem aku sedar dalam plu life ni, semua nak cepat. Nak commit cepat sangat. Bukan aku tak mahu tapi I just got out from a really painful relationship so rite now I’m being too careful in choosing the rite person for me. Sekarang aku dah dewasa and I have to start take charge of my life. Paling aku tak suka, kalo ada yang dah mula control hidup aku. Apapun, setiap manusia ada bermacam2 kerenah yang kadangkala kita sendiri tak terduga cuma cara kita menghadapinya berbeza mengikut perilaku masing2.
“All I want at the moment is peace in mind”. It’s important for me to find balance in the middle of mayhem. Semalam si dia dah kena lecture dengan aku. Semacam kesian pun ada plak dekat dia. Like I always said, “we need time to get to know each other first before kita commit anything”. I do appreciate apa yg dia dah buat utk aku and I do know you are waiting for the miracle to happen between us (mengikut kata dia…) but that miracle will not happen too soon since we’re both not ready to commit. Aku pun tak nak di tuduh cepat sangat got into a relationship so I’m taking everything slowly. Lagipun kalo cepat sangat meaning that aku just nk cover kesedihan aku jer so lebih baik jangan kan. Aku pesan gak kat dia yg aku tak suka short term, daripada short term baik berkawan jer – rasanya dia sentap kot…hehe.
Tak tahu kalo orang sanggup bersabar but skrg ni, my career and family comes first and aku nak lebihkan diri aku dulu before aku lebihkan org lain. Call me “selfish”, coz I don’t care. Dulu kalo lebihkan orang pun, last-last aku gak yg sakit + tensen. Dah single mingle ni, baik aku relaks dulu. Tak gitu?
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